Yesterday, I had an amazing day hanging out and doing pretty much nothing. This would be the first time in forever I've been able to do it. =)
I went to the park and spent about 2 hours people watching(totally fun) and walking around(I can only sit for so long...), wrote in my journal(the last entry was from in March). Then I went to lunch with some friends which was good(patio, drinks, foods, laughs, good friends, you can't ask fore more. :D).
Ok, then here is the kicker. Yesterday evening I went out with a friend(A) that I've known since high school, she just got back from a trip so I was all excited to finally see her. About 2 hours before we were to meet, I got a "withheld" call on my phone, I answered it and it was another old friend(B) who I haven't seen since Dec and the last time we met up I honestly had one of the worst evenings of my life. Being completely bombarded and caught off guard, I told here time and location of our meet up and instantly regretted it even before I hung up.
To make this sound less horrible, B isn't a bad person but I've known her since high school as well and the three of us use to be really close, but we drifted apart and while me and A see each other all the time, I hardly ever see B and we've grown into different people with different priorities and that good stuff that comes with growing up.
At the end of the night, it definitely wasn't an awesome evening I had wanted and I wish it had gone better, but I realized that sometimes the best thing to do is make a clean cut but unfortunately I suck at that. How come breaking up with a friend is harder than breaking up with a partner?
She comes back to me when she needs me, when I need her she's nowhere to be seen. I don't want drama, I don't want to hurt her feelings and I want the fact that we've drifted apart to stick. The easiest way right... >.<
This took forever. I'm out.
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Mhmm there is a fact that you feel used. Did you talk to her about that?
And if you'd like you could be "available" for her when she needs you? It's selfish yes, but at least it won't leave you...bitter, no, just feeling bad about her not being there for you.
Avoid contact? I have a friend who was really close to me but after something happened between us and we've drifted apart. He messages me, but I've never messaged him back, (i.e. I'm not the first one to start the conversation.)and at some point I've stopped messaging him back so he's got the point.
Is it really hard to break up with a friend than a partner? When I think about it, yes I suppose so, because friendship is just at this different wavelenght o.o. Can't explain it actually. I was never good with words. =)
But I'm glad your morning went well. Hmm, people watching? My teacher does that and it's scary to know how observant she is...x.x
Like...SHE KNOWS stuff, but the emphasis is that SHE KNOWS!
XD
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