If I give you... Will you give me...?

I wake up this morning and the first thing I think about is you.
I miss you so much that even words can not begin to express it.
They say that there are 5 stages of grief,
that you can work through them all,
they don't tell you that you work through them, over and over again.
Some days are ok, some days aren't.
Some days I hit every stage before I even get out of bed.
Some days I don't go through them at all.
I know them all by heart now, Denial-Anger-Bargaining-Depression-Acceptance.
I think that thanks to you, I've become a master bargainer,
it's amazing what you can come up with when you have nothing left.
As I work through to the acceptance that I will never physically see or touch you again, I ask myself "why".
Though I know that I will never get an answer, I still strike up another bargain with the invisible force that's out there.
Love you, and miss you. XOXO