Living to not get hurt.

I have a confession to make.
I don't let people in, I keep them at a distance.
It's a tactic I've used the majority of my life.
For the most part, I don't understand it.
I push people away when they get too close.
I keep so many secrets, most people don't even know.
Many of my friends will tell you that they really don't know much about me.
I prefer to keep it that way.
By keeping people at a distance, I don't have to feel the pain, any pain.
They don't have to get hurt, I don't have to worry about hurting them.
Most importantly, I will never have the opportunity to disappoint them.
To be a failure to them. By building that brick wall between my world and theirs, I am protecting both them and me.
I'm protected, and I live not to get hurt.
I need to change that. You've caused me to want to change that. I want to let you in. I just need some time.