How did I end up here?

I take a look around, and nothing is familiar.

I have made so many changes to my life this year, I don't even know where to begin.
Some days I feel like I've moved mountains and some days I've dug a hole.
Two steps forward, two steps back.

My fortune cookie at lunch today read that "there is to be an opportunity to invest in the very near future." I wonder what that means. I don't even believe in fortune cookies most of the time because I think they're hocus pocus.

I look back and I see the good, the bad, the ugly, and all the beauty that has come from this past year. I can't seem to hang onto anything, any one thing. It just comes at me all at once, floods me with emotions and then I'm overwhelmed.

I'm not moving, but my world is spinning, I just want it to stop for one second, one second so I can gather myself.

I push on, I know that it's the only thing I can do. I need something to help me feel alive.